the truth is out, i am at peace despite now that my carcass has been picked clean. she admitted that that what i said in my vids was true, that is what i needed to completely let go even though she has taken a low blow of twisting this so she had a 'good' reason to ostracize me from the group for good. as she said, if i did do what she told me too it would be 'permanent'. so be it. these are not the kind of people i need to be around. my energy was drained and i was stressed from being around some of them and dealing with this and other issues. good bye, fair well… i'm glad to be FREE!